It's been a good week

It's been a good week on many levels and it started out on Sunday morning with an awesome sermon by Pastor Henrichs. It was so good, and I know that there will be more times that I need to hear it that I had him send me a copy. I am going to ask him if it's OK to post on my blog and if he says "yes", I hope you will check back and take it in. I can't even put it in a nutshell for you, what I can say is it was a reminder that we do not need to be strong. We all have thorns that we may pray, and beg and plead be taken out of our lives and if the answer isn't what we want, it doesn't mean God isn't listening...it's there for a reason.
I have been pursuing "being strong" or getting stronger for years now and it's exhausting and frustrating, yet through it all, God continues to bless me, I am always driven by the sense that there is a greater purpose for me and my life than what I might have mapped out on my own.

This permission to not be strong gave me the willpower to go to the yoga class I had signed up for months ago but was now dreading. I didn't want to be the one person in the room that couldn't do it. I didn't want to be weak and certainly not in front of people I didn't know and who didn't know me. I didn't want to have to explain the reason behind my weakness, I wasn't going to go. I had permission this week to not be strong and I went. I am glad I did. The instructor (a friend of mine from Bunko) gave me some pointers before class. She was encouraging and positive and understanding and all the things I needed for trying something new. I loved it and am looking forward to next Thursday evening.

This week I saw Dr. Cohen. I think we are both comfortable with the fact that although the disease is still there, it is stable on medication. The meds, along with the balance I've achieved between work and home, eating foods that are much better for me, getting rest when I need it and not pushing myself to be what I was but accepting the me that I am creating, all play a part in this. I asked Dr. Cohen if I could start Physical Therapy again and she agreed. My first PT appointment was on Wednesday and I have two appointments per week scheduled for a number of weeks to follow.

Well, although I have a renewed energy after yoga tonight, I also have a long day ahead of me tomorrow, starting with another doctor appointment. I am seeing an opthamologist. One of the medications I take can cause a loss of vision so I need to have an eye exam every six months, I think. I haven't noticed any changes so I am not worried.

Have a wonderful day and remember....you do not have to be strong. God is there to hold you up if you need Him.

Good night.
Kris B